Now I am resume my English writing again

Hi, there. You don't expect me to come back, do you?

I am a stranger on the earth, wondering from one places to another, with a hope to rest on any haven, any breast and any arm.

I have distracted mind. It's quite hard for me to concentrate to do anything except the ones which I am particularly interested. It's no wonder everytime when I get a mission, I became extremely anxious. Then mission beomes burden, burden becomes unbreathness, and would kill me at anytime. Something must have gone wrong totally. But I don't know what it is.

Deep in the waters of trouble, I felt disappointed and frustrated. Am I a loser? But it seems like that I have already achieved something, though not great, but still remarkable. So I am not an uncurable man, am I.

It's said that only love can free a man from the slavery of life. I don't think it does work in my life. I only see lust instead of love, temperariness instead of everlastingness. These spellings are awfully bad, please just ignore it.

I want to find a rythem in my language. I want to uter words from my heart rather than my lips. I am growing older and cannot aford of lavishing my poor life.

My mother called me. She has been worrying about me. I ofter grieve her unconsciously. Maybe I just want to escape from all the responsibilities. To criticize one's own needs strenth and passion, unfortunately I gradually lost them.

Do I still have any dream? That's a resonable question though not a good one. I do have dreams. But it alters every seconds. I can't grasp them as they fly too fast.

What do I want? I want a luxury camera and everything which is suitable of shooting. So far as I have known, I can't have them both. So I don't want either of them.

The only thing I desire is that I may have a quiet heart and strong body to resisting all the turblence and tempatation. I want a calm soul.

Just now my boss called me to submit my project plan and have a meeting in the evening. It troubled my heart. I felt the pressure and I need relax. So I am download some desirable books including the 100 years solitude. We need something to soothe ourselves though we know clearly that it is only anothe illusion.